INTRODUCTION

It's 10:44 am, I'm in 3rd period sitting next to Iris. I feel like shit and I wanna go home. Anyways I should probably introduce myself, I'm Lotus- I mean that's not my real name but I'm not ready to share that yet. I'm 15 years old and I just moved to a new school and Iris is my only friend here. I recently cut my hair short like a boy and shaved my eyebrows off. I go by any pronouns, I'm gender fluid and also pansexual. I recently got released from an inpatient mental hospital and started attending this school about a week later. I get attached to people at first sight, I don't even have to speak to them or know a single thing about them before I become interested in them. I'm extremely indecisive, impulsive, and emotional. When I get an idea it has to be done at that very moment. When I like someone, they're all I think about night and day, And when I'm upset I shut down and break things, self-harm, smoke, drastically change my appearance, or basically anything destructive that I can think of. There are some good things about me though. If I like you, even if it's just as a friend, there's pretty much nothing you can do to scare me away, I'm extremely open to anything and basically have no boundaries. I'm always open to making new friends and I'm usually pretty friendly unless I have a reason not to be. I think that's all for now, I'm gonna try to post journal entries daily but my life can be kinda boring sometimes. If you have any questions, comments, or just want to talk, my email is listed on the home page. -Sincerely, Lotus :)